Monday, August 19, 2013

Dirty days of summer


We bought a brand spanking new house. Everything all shiny and clean. A blank slate for us to create a new home.

Also, an empty backyard. No plants, no grass. Just dirt and a few bent nails left by the builder.

We go out and stare at the dirt a lot.

It’s hard starting over.

Maybe I’m just a moody type of person but I find this a metaphor for where I am right now. Starting over in a few ways and trying to make it all work.

While we lived in this part of California before – a couple of times, actually – our house is in a city that’s unfamiliar. The kids have just graduated from university so we have moved onto unfamiliar territory – empty nesting. I’m retired, much earlier than expected, and trying to figure out what’s next.

Some days, I look out and it’s all bare dirt. Other days, I can appreciate the opportunity to create something new. Just feeling a little impatient for the future to happen.

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